Monday 11-15-04: Well wow today was a long long day. I got up at 9:00 and got ready and then went to my doc's and that didn't go like what I wanted but we will see. I then went to lunch and got a call about work so I went ahead and went into work. Walked in the door and sat down and had a Hugh HIT to my thoughts and to my whole everything that I never thought I would hear. It messed me up for about an hour but I then went on with the day. I thought about it all day and all evening and I am still thinking about it. It took 2 months of a lot of pain and a lot of eye looks and a lot of feeling less of a person and wow finally people might think I am not that bad. And finally it feels a little better. I lost something that was to me very important and I will never have that back but I have to try and get on and some day maybe it will work out that I can have part of it back. If not I have learned a lot and just hope that people will trust me a little more from now on. Finally I can breath a little easier around places. Came home and told my Mother about it and she said I told you people would learn would around and find out the truth that we knew.
