Monday 11-29-04: Well I just ordered me another new cell phone and now I am going to get on the phone about some Parts that did not come in for work. And then I have lunch planes with an past Co-Worker at Port at noon and then I have to stop by my doc's for a min and then I should be back home. I hope. Call me if you need anything 765-717-9819..... you know... I had a totally different thought for today as I was just sitting here. But If I write that I might offend people so I better just stop. The point is, If you don't know something then shut the crap up PERIOD...... I am sorry if people are reading this from my family or other people that get offended but I am sick and tired of living a certain way or not just being my self because of what ever. I am sick and tired of it. And it is going to end. The reason I have this is to vent and let things out and release things, and I think I have been very tame in stuff that I say and thoughts that I have. Well SCREW that... I live with myself, I live with my own thoughts, I live with my own person and if you don't like that then you must have one perfect life then for you to knock on me. So what if I have cams in my house, So what If I rent movies a lot, So what if I spend a lot of time at the the computers, so what if I take off and just drive for hours and hours so what. At least I am not at a bar every night, smoking weed, or getting in fights, or out doing what ever with whomever. IF you have a problem with me come to me... talk to me... call me (765) 717-9819 heck ill even pay for a collect call... but just get off my back and stop talking about me when I am not around, or saying things you know nothing about. And if you don't know both sides then SHUT UP........ I try to help out others with computer problems, I try to give what I can when I can I try and try but ya know it gets old sometimes..... I have been trying to do better, and trying to not talk when I shouldn't and trying to be an all around ok guy. So with that being said please get off my BACK...................................................... Now..... If you wan to be a friend then great if you want to be more then a friend well lets talk lol... IF you want to just vent to someone then feel free to email me... My life needs to change and it is going to. I have done things I am sorry for and I have said I am sorry. So time to be Patrick Conner again .. I just hope you stick around to get to know me for me... Well I see a show is coming on that has women in high heels lol so I am back to the TV lol have a GREAT night and email me if you just want to talk or vent. Who knows I might post some of your letters and just let people know what you have to say. But only if you want.... CYA.... Went out to work tonight and did some things for my CEO and then went to our new office in Yorktown and met up with Mark and Bill and worked for a while and then left around 11:00. Now it is 2:00 am and I am going to bed. Night Night.

Sunday 11-28-04

Sunday 11-28-04: Well I got up and wasted time with Comcast on the phone and then I took off and went to work to work on something and then I left work and went up 300 to NewCastle and then ate at McDonalds and then stopped by Goodies and then came home. Basically just wanted to get away and take a road trip.

Sat. 11-27-04

Saturday 11-27-04: Well I just got up and it is 11:45am. wow maybe I shouldn't of gotten a new mattress lol. I liked only getting 4-5 hours a night it was nice I had a lot more time to do things. Now wow no time at all. Well yesterday was the day after Thanksgiving and only Sabra and Paul came over to visit. Mom was so happy that they showed up. Just worked on website and other stuff around the house and added some pictures to my picture page and redid the main screen.

Friday 11-26-04

Friday 11-26-04: Well it is now 2:00pm and got up today around 11:00am and I went and got my muffler fixed on my red car and then I came back home and now I am working on my computers. Pacers play again tonight so I will be here watching that.. I am thinking about killing the website and just ending the online thing, what do you think. Honestly let me know I am really fighting this thought. Well I am and have been working on my website and just going through pictures on my computer. I also am getting kind of tired so I am thinking about going to bed. Well I am tired of thinking about everything and looking at old pictures of people so I am going to crash. Nite Nite (2:00am)

Thurs. 11-25-04

Thursday 11-25-04: Happy Thanksgiving.... I just got up around 11:30am and most of the snow outside that fell last night around 4:00am was gone. :( .. I got up and cleaned up the house a little and worked on some things. Now I am watching the COLTS play. I watched a movie last night that really got me going (Afraid) lol it was called Salem's Lot. I was really impressed. Then I crashed around 5:00am or so. Well I hope that everyone reading this has great great day. All my cams will be on today and we are having dinner I guess today at 5:30pm or so. WOW late Thanksgiving. Might as well wait till Christmas and have it all in one day. But ya know oh well right. K Riley and Kim you guys have a GREAT day ok. I am thinking about you both. Also KIM I know you are going into the Hospital today and you have more test's on Monday know that I am thinking about you ok. Anyway if you want to talk call me anytime 765-717-9819. Cya.....I'll post more later on today. Well everyone just left and I finished cleaning up. I am now just hanging out and watching the Pacers Game and watching Kim on Cam as she is getting ready to fall asleep. I didn't hear anything from Riley today I thought I might. I am just going to work on the computers and then crash. Well it is now 2:03 am and I cant sleep. I can't get some things out of my mind and I hate this crap. People know how I am with having to have closure and I don't have it on 2 major things that happen in my life and 1 I will never have it on and that is fine. I am getting to where that is ok with me but the other, all it would take is a phone call, or meeting, or email. And it Sucks that it can't be that nice. I am going to work on my website for a few and try to go to bed again.

Wed. 11-24-04

Wednesday 11-24-04: Well I have been busy today getting things finished downstairs (without help) and doing. I went and and got my hair cut and bought a new mattress for my bed. I went and picked it up and blew a hole in my Catalectic Converter so that has to be fixed on Friday. No biggy at all. Then I came home and worked on cleaning up the house and getting that stuff done for tomorrow (big whoopee) and other then that nothing much. Oh I have to go to the store for Mother and do some other things for her. I am doing laundry and other then that nota. Doc just called and I have another apt. next Tuesday at 10 am and now I am going to get cloths (sheets) out of the laundry and get them on the bed so they don't wrinkle. go figure I would know that.

Tues. 11-23-04

Tuesday 11-23-04: Had a sucky day, then had a sucky afternoon, then had a sucky night. I swear I hate this crap. I want to do what I want when I want and just live my own life and not worry about what other people will think or what they might misunderstand. Also I am sick of missing people... Also sick of giving and giving and giving. I know just poo on it.. lol Friendships are hard to find, True friendship are harder to find and Best Friends are impossible to find. so if you have one or two or three or more consider yourself blessed and keep them for ever. IF I ever have it to do over it WILL be different. Well it is now 4:30 am and I am just blah blah blah... I am going to bed.. cya

Monday 11-22-04

Monday 11-22-04: Had lunch with the Anderson Connection and then worked in the morning even though I am on VAC. Also just trying to get through the holiday... Cleaned up downstairs, should be done in a few days.

sunday 11-21-04

Sunday 11-21-04: Well I got up and went to Indy and had the car cleaned and Waxed and then left there and drove to NewCastle and met with a friend and hung out and went to Arby's for late lunch and then left there around 3:00 and then drove on home. I am now going to watch the rest of the Colt's game and then go downstairs and start cleaning up the basement. I might have the cam on (from the kitchen) just move it down there for the day. Anyway what's up. Mom isn't feeling to bad today finally.

Sat. 11-20-04

Saturday 11-20-04: Well it is now 6:14 pm and I just got up about an hour ago. LOL I hate going out on a because that makes it really hard to get up in they day lol. Well I am just going to hang out all evening and relax. I think tomorrow I might take off and go to Indy and get my car waxed and then come back or go some where in Indy and watch the Colts game. So anyway... back to work on the computers. I might go get some dinner. I am also on VAC again next week I hope I can just take it and not get back into the work mode.

Friday 11-19-04

Friday 11-19-04: Well today was a long day. Got a lot done at the office, then came home and hung out and did video chat with Kim again, and she talked me into going out so I went out to Marks place to hear them play. Then left there and met some people out at another place and then went back to the place where Mark plays then everyone came and met me there and hung out. And now it is 3:00 am on Saturday morning so I better either do something or go to bed lol. I think I should just go to bed. By the way Kim I am going to kick your butt for making me go out lol. Anyway I see you on cam and you are sleeping very good so I think I Am going to go to bed. Cya in the morning. PAGE me when you get up.

Thurs. 1--18-04

Thursday 11-18-04: I cant remember what I did lol.. oh well next...

Wed. 11-17-04

Wednesday 11-17-04: Well I got up around 10 and couldn't move lol so I laid back down and got up again at 11:00 and went into the office. I also found out some other things with the new building and I am just thinking wow lol oh well. Anyway I worked all day and came home and did some ordering for stuff for the new area and I am debating weather or not to go back again tonight and do more. What do you think a) sleep or b) go into work and work longer. OK ill go to work. I just watched Elf and ya know. I really hate this time of year. I hate holidays and I just wish that someone could fast-forward it to Jan 2 and then go on. Well anyway if I think about it too long I will get more down so forget it. Fill my time with work and not worry about it right.. right.. Never mind.. wow.. Anyway.. Took mom to the Hospital tonight because I thought she fell again but I guess she was dizzy and almost fell and hurt her arm and hand and they found out that her Potassium is really really low and she was dizzy and maybe that is why she almost fell. Well we just got home and it is 11:00pm.

Tues. 11-16-04

Tuesday 11-16-04: OK got up today and went into the office and started working. Started off just fine. Then found out I am going to be doing the stuff that I thought was going to get down by a company that could do it a lot faster and with warranty but I guess not. So I am going to go bowling tonight I think and then go back to work and do the wiring. It will take all night plus all day tomorrow but they all of the sudden want this in now and ASAP. Other then that I have never done it before and have no clue or anything about it. But hey why not huh. I can rig just like other people can. I then left work and came home and I am now getting ready to write a quick note to Kim and then I am going to bowl. If you want to call me you can at 765-717-9819 that is my cell. OK it is 9:00pm and I am sick as a dog and just got home from bowling where I threw up 4 times lol yuck I know and now I am getting ready to go back out to work to work on the wiring for the new building. I should finish up about 4 am or so and then come come back home shower take a fast 1 hour nap or 2 and then go back into work. IF I GET UP. Mrs. Riley are you out there. Its about time to get the cookies out of the freezer and bring them inside. I think that is what you said you do at your moms. Anyway call me .. cya.. Off to work I go lol.....

Monday 11-15-04

Monday 11-15-04: Well wow today was a long long day. I got up at 9:00 and got ready and then went to my doc's and that didn't go like what I wanted but we will see. I then went to lunch and got a call about work so I went ahead and went into work. Walked in the door and sat down and had a Hugh HIT to my thoughts and to my whole everything that I never thought I would hear. It messed me up for about an hour but I then went on with the day. I thought about it all day and all evening and I am still thinking about it. It took 2 months of a lot of pain and a lot of eye looks and a lot of feeling less of a person and wow finally people might think I am not that bad. And finally it feels a little better. I lost something that was to me very important and I will never have that back but I have to try and get on and some day maybe it will work out that I can have part of it back. If not I have learned a lot and just hope that people will trust me a little more from now on. Finally I can breath a little easier around places. Came home and told my Mother about it and she said I told you people would learn would around and find out the truth that we knew.

Sunday 11-14-04

Sunday 11-14-04: Well I got up and cleaned and cleaned and cleaned. Then I took a quick shower and got busy doing work online. I also talked to Kim... WOW that is all I have to say about this girl. She is daBOMB lol. Also waiting on everyone to get here. I am also building my Niece a computer so that she will be able to get online. But she doesn't know yet. I hope she doesn't read my blog.. lol Well it is now 4:55 am and I better get to bed need to get up in a few hours.

Sat. 11-13-04

Saturday 11-13-04: Good Morning You All... lol .. Anyway got up around 8 or so and worked on computer for someone and finished it up. I am now working on my computer and the website and other things. I don't really have anything planned for today just kind of hanging out. Just got back from blockbuster and I saw Sabra and Paul out while I was there and then I came on home. I guess we are having a party for mom tomorrow after church for her birthday... I am still home just hanging out working on my computer's. I think the party will be tomorrow around 1:00 or so if you want to tune in on the Cams. Whatsup KC.

Friday 11-12-04

Friday 11-12-04: Got up around 9 am. Worked on my computer till I get a call from work and then I met someone for even thought I needed to stay here and get some stuff done. Then I stopped and got some paper and an envelope from the VP and wrote a quick letter and dropped it off then came home and now I am here working on my website and computer. Well I worked most of the day and evening. Now I am just hanging out bored. I thought I saw someone tonight when I was driving around so I flickered my lights and they didn't stop or come back or wave so I guess it wasn't. I then went into work to reset something and then came back home.

Thursday 11-11-04

Thursday 11-11-04: Just got up and it is now 7:30 I am thinking about going to Indy to have my red car cleaned. I don't want to wax it the first time in a long time myself lol. Too much work. lol. I need to stay home and work on my computers all day but I don't want to waste the day. I don't know what to do..lol Well I am going to go to Indy then.. Call my cell to say hi ok I will be bored for about 2 hours 765-717-9819. Well I think I am going to stop going to the Psychologist because its all a money thing anyway. In one way you are paying for another person to talk to you. I might as well pay for someone that will talk to me when ever I need it and not just on their schedule. Then when you really want to talk and cant do it because you don't want to go over you allotted time then reschedule 2 weeks later and forget everything you talked about before and then have to talk about the past 2 weeks and that takes the whole hour then back to nothing. Why don't they make it to where you just hang out and go some place and just spend all day or what ever you and that person talking about everything oh well guess that is why I work on computers and not people lol. Well it is almost 1:00 am and I just got off the phone with a friend in NewCastle and now I am going to crash. I will talk to you all tomorrow. I don't know what I am going to do tomorrow. Relax I guess and try to figure out what I am going to do. I don't want anymore days like this one. At all..

Wed.1-10-04

Wednesday 11-10-04: Hello again everyone.. lol I just got up and it is 12:30 pm wow.. long long sleep. And I am not any better looking.... oh well.. I tried.. Anyway today I get new tires finally on my red car and then I am having it waxed and cleaned and then I am going to take my yellow car over and put it in the garage and turn on the garage cam and take the seats out, carpet out, everything out and clean and clean that way it is ready for me to store for the winter. Well that is my plans for today who know what it will turn into. So how is everyone doing today.. SCRATCH all these plans. I am just at home and hanging out. I don't think my brother Jeff ever has a day off. He is going to KILL himself by having to work all the time. I just don't understand. I personally would be changing something. Cooper didn't get my tires in so I am waiting again another day on them. Well I just got home and it is actually Thursday morning at 2:30 am. I went to Portland Indiana to meet up with someone and we hung out at her house and talked. Then I came back to town. So I am going to crash and I will be back on in the morning. By the way I did get my tires finally lol.

Tues. 11-9-04

Tuesday 11-09-04: Woke up and got an email from the office and I went in to meet with the install guy that is installing the new T1 line for Data and then I left there and went the EndZone for my normal Tuesday lunch and then I stopped at the Video Store and got 3 movies and now I am back home working on computers and watching movies. I also have bowling tonight I cant forget about. ok back again. It is now 11:30 and i just got home from bowling a little bit ago and been kind of having out talking on the phone. I need to get to bed but I really am not that tired. I know I should be but hmmmmmm. Well I am going to work on my website a little longer and then I Am going to crash. I hope you will check back again tomorrow.. cya

Monday 11-8-04

Monday 11-08-04: Well I got up at 9 or so and then went to the doc's, they found fluid in my ears so I am on a decongestant and also nose spray *yuck. I then went to work on my VACATION and made some phone calls about our Anderson Office being with out the phone. I called them on Friday to come fix it and nothing, then today SBC gets there and they say it is on the other people so I called them back again today and they are working on it again now. Gesh if everyone or most people were devoted no matter when to work then it should of gotten fixed on Friday night or Saturday or Sunday. And then people wonder why you change Vendors. Well I Am now home working on computer stuff and working on another report for work tomorrow. I am off on vacation all week but wow.. lol anyway. I am also sick of just things the way they are. I know it is up to me to change them but when you cant get a-hold of someone you are at a loss. I guess when I went to the Cemetery yesterday it was just a little much much again for me. Well I came home and did some work for the office and worked on the website and then tried to watch some of the colts game but I feel asleep and then went to bed.

Sat. 11-6-04

Saturday 11-06-04: Well I got up today around 9am or so and then I went into work for a few min and then I went to the car wash and washed my yellow car and then stopped by AutoZone to pick up some tire shine and left then and stopped and got me a coke and then went to the Post Office to mail out Laura's package to her and I hope she likes it. You can see her website if you go to www.wavgirl.com. She Rock's, also she does website design if you need something done. Then I came back home and starting cleaning did some laundry (that reminds me I need to change it over) also cleaned my home office and window's and bedroom. Also cleaned the kitchen shelves and ran sweeper all over house. I love to clean. Anyway now I am getting ready to go back to block buster and then going to Staples real fast.

Fri. 11-5-04

Friday 11-05-04: Got up today around 7 and then went to Cooper Tire to check on car and then came back home and got other car. Then I went to work and then went to Anderson to do some work and the phone system was down so I stayed there and worked. Then I came back to Yorktown office and stopped and got some meds for my Mother and then came home. I am now working on my website and also working on stuff for work. I ended up saving about 1000,00 a month for work and I also got another Full T1 for data being put in soon. Wow I love my job. But other then that Today SUCKS I swear. I don't know how one minute I can be ok and fine and then the next with out any warning I can just be down and out. I hate this crap.. I need to go get my hair cut at a place in Castleton called True Colors but I have only been there once and ended up waiting about 2 hours or so lol how can I remember that lol. anyway give me a hoot and a holla if you want. This SUCKS..... Well I went into work and did some things and then went for a small drive and then came back home and worked on my computer stuff. It is now 2:00 am so I am going to get ready for bed. I guess we are having a big family dinner tomorrow night here at the house. So the kitchen and living room cams will be on and active as usual.

Thurs. 11-4-04

Thursday 11-04-04: Good Morning Everyone. Today is going to be a GREAT day I have the feeling. It is now 3:20 am and I just getting around now. I am on my way into work early to do some paperwork and also do some checks on machines and also work on Citrix. I hope everyone has a GREAT day and say hi and let me know what sup. also if you can do me a favor. I am going to make a page up in the next week or so that shows pictures of people that come to my site a lot and visit just so others and myself can tell more about the people. So if you would, send me in some pictures of yourself and I will post them. The more you send the more we know about ya. lol.... send them to pdconner@comcast.net "Thanks Again" OK just got home.. Very Very tired today. I got a lot done at the office, we got a new voice mail server and system coming in and also I got another full T1 for the office coming. That will make 2 Full T1's can't wait. I put in 16 hour's or so today so I Am going to go to bed. Talk to you later.

Wed. 11-3--04

Wednesday 11-03-04: Well I got up this morning around 6:20 and started working from home and then came into work. I have 3 computers to get ready then I have to go around to every computer and make sure it has a sound card if not, I need to either get one or install one with speakers. I then have to work on the Citrix Server a little. I have been getting e-mail's from a guy that is (GAY) about my bed cams and I have contacted his ISP about it and also tried to block some things and put a log on my website for his IP so that I can return that info to his ISP. If he does not stop I will post his email on my site and you guys can give him a what for. lol. Why can't people just be people and be nice and respectful of stuff and not have to be a butt about things. 8 years I have had cams and this is the first time someone has been like this. Well I off here and getting back to work. I am on VAC for next week if anyone wants to do something let me know. I will also be working on my Buick during this time also I hope. Well I just got home and started working on the computers from home and also doing some updates on my stuff here at the house. I am going to try and get to bed early tonight because I need to be at work early in the morning. But we will see how that goes lol. OK I am back... it is now 1:45 am and I am going to bed. Cya all early in the am.

Monday 11-2-04

Monday 11-01-04: Well I got up today around 8am and took my Mother to the Doc's and then took her back home and I cleaned the windows in the Front and the Kitchen as I wait to take her back to the doctors. I am working on the servers at work and here at the house. I pick up my Buick today from Coopers when it is finished and leave them the Nissan to get it ready for storage and things. I also have to clean more here at the house. I will post more later today. OK about to go to bed. I got mom back from the Doc's and picked up both cars and worked around the house. I am now just finishing up the servers at work and remotely worked on a few other offices around Indiana. It is now 11:30 pm. Nite Nite.
Tuesday 11-02-04: Busy day today. I got up and went to work and then had a Doc's appt. and that went ok. Then I went to lunch with about 15 people for a birthday lunch for a lady at work. Then I came back to the office and called the Doc's about my ear ache and being dizzy and asked for CHEAP meds that are on my insurance and what did I get. Very expensive meds. I don't understand with all the med's that are out why cant your doc look at what insurance you have and give you something that is covered for the 10 dollar range of your insurance (Generic Plan) I just don't understand it. Anyway I left work and went and voted and say that my mother hadn't been there yet so I called my brother and he took her. I then went to bowling, and did pretty well. Left there and stopped by and got meds and came home. I then worked on the computers for a long time, till about 4 am and then went to bed.

Monday 11-1-04

Monday 11-01-04: Well I got up today around 8am and took my Mother to the Doc's and then took her back home and I cleaned the windows in the Front and the Kitchen as I wait to take her back to the doctors. I am working on the servers at work and here at the house. I pick up my Buick today from Coopers when it is finished and leave them the Nissan to get it ready for storage and things. I also have to clean more here at the house. I will post more later today. OK about to go to bed. I got mom back from the Doc's and picked up both cars and worked around the house. I am now just finishing up the servers at work and remotely worked on a few other offices around Indiana. It is now 11:30 pm. Nite Nite.

Sunday 10-31-04

Sunday 10-31-04:OK just got up and it is now 7:30am. I don't know why I couldn't sleep very well but I just thinking of stupid stuff I either need to get done at the house like (floors, Basement, computer stuff, Car stuff) or was just thinking about past stuff that I miss doing or would like to do again if given the opportunity. I just put my bed sheets in to wash and I am going to turn the bed's today and then I need to go to work for a few and oh yes have McDonalds for breakfast and then I need to stop and get some floor wax and then come back home and clean and watch the Colts play today. I found some Teeter Totters the other day while I was driving around so if YOU ever want to go ride and talk let me know. You can at least say hi. OK time to get busy.. BE BACK. Well I went to the store again and got stuff for my Mother and I also got some Floor Wax and did my bed room. I am finally getting the Servers done at work and also getting my computers done. I am off tomorrow because I need to take my mother to the Doc's she will be there all day. I don't know if I will write anymore tonight since I am cleaning and just working. So if I don't. Nite Nite lol
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