Well this is going to be a hard post.... I have been thinking about it for a while and I just feel that I need to end the blog for a while. To me a blog is something that you should be able to write about anything and just VENT. I honestly don't feel I can do that any longer. I always seem to worry about who I will offend and or who might take things the wrong way. I shouldn't have to worry about that but I do. My blog started off (over 900 posts ago) being something that was fun to share and brag and just write.. Since then my blog has became more popular to read by not only people on the net but family. Along with family I think people from the church probably read it also. I haven't been very faithful in church since my dad died. I have a lot of issues with it that I am trying to work out and having a really hard time doing. First of all anyone that knows me knows that I hate to be around people and that I feel so different and so inferior. I even feel that way when we have family get together's. I know I shouldn't feel that way about family but I do. So it is really hard for me to gather with a lot of people or groups.
I also feel that I have had a lot of issues lately that I don't want to share but I need to vent and this will help me to be able to write it down and just keep it private. I am working through a lot of issues with help of doctors and other things. Some days it works and other days it sucks. When it sucks if I write things then people say or make comments and when it is great it seems that is OK. No matter if it is someone I know or someone I don't know. I always worry about things. YES I AM paranoid and I have been for a long time.
Some other reasons why I want to stop the public blog is...... I am sick of the stupid GUY from Harrisburg PA. writing things to me about me and my issues and my site. I have been working with the owners of ZonkBoard.com and Comcast and Verizon.net (His Carrier) to get this issues taken care of. They are tracking all ip's from those areas and keeping logs to deciede what to do. I have been working with them now for a few days and it is really funny that someone thinks they can say things and not get traced back. Anyway we will see. I am also just not myself anymore and need to take a step back.
Now for the good things that come from it lol.... I can have HD update his blog more often... lol I will also be sending more pictures up to the my Cell Cam page. I am also tracking comments on that page also.
Anyway I wanted to say thanks to everyone that donates and everyone that emails me with great things to say about me and the site. You will still be able to (donate) and email and read my Twitter account. If you want, you can click on follow me under my twitter window and you will get posts every time I update it. Plus that will act as a small blog in a way.
Once again Thanks.....................................................
