Well I got up today around 11:00 am. Have you ever ha day where you should just stay in bed and not even bother with getting up well let me tell you, today should of been that day. I spoke with someone brand new on the phone from yahoo and we talked or about an hour and wow I feel like more or a dumb butt now then I did before I even spoke with her. Then I worry more about going out tonight with Christie then I should. I am just tired of all the thoughts and just wish I could just not care what people thought of me or care how people took me. Like right now. I just want to call her and cancel going out tonight. Will I ? I don't know. I always worry about time. I hate it.. I worry how much time will I have with Anyone I go out with friends or date, I always worry will I do what she wants to do more then what I want to do. I worry if I should want to go to a movie and she wont should I or should I not say anything.. I just hate it. I worry and think about everything before it even gets time for it to happen that I screw up my day because I worry about it. I wish I could just get together with someone and just say lets take off---- drive and drive and listen to the radio and just drive and if we go 4 hours for dinner so what if we go 2 hours for a movie so what if we go to Ohio or Kentucky or Michigan or what ever we just go. I feel as though I am starved for just company sometimes I don't want it to end because I don't know if or when it will happen again. And then I am starved so much just to be by myself and not have to talk to anyone that I don't want to talk to people sometimes.. lol.. I guess I like to be spontaneous and just go with it. Oh Well I will shut up.. lol wow what a long day already and I have only been up for 3 hours lol. I am already wore out. I hope I do go tonight and I hope it is ok and we have a blast. If not then would I have been better off just to stay at home with my computers and my TV and my Pepsi lol. Those 3 things are always there lol. Well wow what a rant that was. Sorry about all that. I got cleaned up and went and picked up Christie. We drove to Indianapolis and ate at a place called Uno Chicago Grill *yes I tried something new. It reminded me of the Pizza I used to have at the Flying Tomato Pizza Place here in Muncie. We ate there and went driving around and couldn't find anything to do so we went to a Club. We left there after a few hours and went to our friends house (Statia) and met up with her and Shane. I guess that is Statia's man and he is a really nice guy. I really thought he was cool. We hung out and talked and laughed and they (Statia and Christie) danced for us and it was a hoot. Then we played cards. I then took them to a place in Broad Ripple (A town of nothing but bars) and dropped them off and I came back home.