WOW is all I can say about this weekend...... And not a good WOW..
I guess there is such as a thing as being to nice.. I guess I learned my lesson and just need to BACK the way off. Sometimes I just wish things were different in my life and I could start over but I don't think that would even matter anymore.. I am NOT A COLD guy and I am not like most guys either.. I actually care about how people feel. Anyway I am going to work some more and just keep my mind off things if that can honestly work..

Long Day......

Worked all day and was able to stop in and see Nanette and the kids, then went out to dinner with Denise and Chilisa and then we all went over to Lisa's to hang out.. after that I went for a small drive and now I'm home and bored... hmmmm what to do....

Last day of Vacation........ :(

Well today was NOT what I wanted for my last day of Vacation. I will be honest with myself and say that it SUCKED.. I guess with my Birthday last week and this happening this week it just blows even more. I love helping people and I love working but sometimes I work way to much and honestly I did nothing but worry about work my last 3 days and even worked remotely because of it. I just wish I honestly FIT somewhere. I don't feel I fit anyway and it really makes you feel empty as a person.. Anyway I am going to try and be better but I know it will be hard.

Today a bad but good day....

Today was a bad day because of my stupid mistakes but ended up basing a great day.... I just hope that someday I will be able to be happy with myself no matter what I am doing or saying or anything really. I have a very low self-esteem and just need to except myself and live my life.

I always try to do and say the right things for others and forget about living for myself and I just need to work on being me.