Good Sunday Morning Everyone....  (Couldn't Sleep lol again)

I hope everyone had a great Christmas and got everything you wanted..... I had a really great Christmas and spent a lot of Quality Time with Denise.. It seems funny how you can go to lunch or go to a fast dinner or see a movie and how it doesn't even compare to just sitting around and being together and talking and laughing and sharing ya know.. We (Denise and I) ended up having Christmas Eve at my house with my family and it was pretty cool then we watched TV in my office and then went to her house and ended up opening there at Midnight with her kids. Then we went to the store lol and got things for breakfast and cooked at 3am.. lol then we tried to watch A Christmas Story at 4am but I feel asleep and so did she on the couch. I woke up and headed home and then I got a call from her friend Lisa to come over at 9am or so to setup something for her kids so I did that and went by and picked up Denise and Lacey to go to her Parents for Christmas. We hung out there all afternoon and that was awesome.. So honestly it was a GREAT TIME and GREAT Couple of Days..

WOW is all I can say about this weekend...... And not a good WOW..
I guess there is such as a thing as being to nice.. I guess I learned my lesson and just need to BACK the way off. Sometimes I just wish things were different in my life and I could start over but I don't think that would even matter anymore.. I am NOT A COLD guy and I am not like most guys either.. I actually care about how people feel. Anyway I am going to work some more and just keep my mind off things if that can honestly work..

Long Day......

Worked all day and was able to stop in and see Nanette and the kids, then went out to dinner with Denise and Chilisa and then we all went over to Lisa's to hang out.. after that I went for a small drive and now I'm home and bored... hmmmm what to do....

Last day of Vacation........ :(

Well today was NOT what I wanted for my last day of Vacation. I will be honest with myself and say that it SUCKED.. I guess with my Birthday last week and this happening this week it just blows even more. I love helping people and I love working but sometimes I work way to much and honestly I did nothing but worry about work my last 3 days and even worked remotely because of it. I just wish I honestly FIT somewhere. I don't feel I fit anyway and it really makes you feel empty as a person.. Anyway I am going to try and be better but I know it will be hard.

Today a bad but good day....

Today was a bad day because of my stupid mistakes but ended up basing a great day.... I just hope that someday I will be able to be happy with myself no matter what I am doing or saying or anything really. I have a very low self-esteem and just need to except myself and live my life.

I always try to do and say the right things for others and forget about living for myself and I just need to work on being me.

Monday - A LONG Productive Day

I am TIRED........................ I worked around the house and they FINISHED the house.. OMG it looks OMG GREAT... I got working with Jeff (Brother) to put stuff together and turn around and 6 hours later it is looking so good. It got so late we had to stop. I am off tomorrow so I will work on it again tomorrow till Jeff gets here tomorrow night and then we can work on it together.. I am just doing the finishing touches. I will be honest with you and this might sound dumb or stupid but I honestly just want to Sit Down and Relax and honestly just let go of everything I feel and let it all out.. I am honestly Physically and Mentally Tired.. It will be a while before I do anything like this again lol.. WOW.. I will post pictures tomorrow and also go through a full detail of everything I had done and that way you all can know and I can look back at it later in life and thing lol wow..

Weekend Over (Here We Go)

Well the weekend went FAASSSTTT and they are coming to work on the house tomorrow morning. I am sure they wont get here till 10am so we will see how much they get done. I have found a few things that need addressing but I hope things will be good. The weekend was OK just seemed to think about the house a lot. I Went out today and got some supplies for the house and also picked up 3 cubic feet of RED MULCH for 119.00 and it is on the trailer in back waiting for me to start putting it out. I also had to buy some new Belkin Cables for the Roof Cam (it is currently down) but it should be back up by the weekend. Other then that it is nothing but house house house..

Hump Day Wednesday ----- Hmmmmm

Well I got up today and went to breakfast and then came back and started in on the house... I talked with them for a few and they also started in.. Today seemed like a slow day on the house - Well the painters got here at 10:00am and left around 6:00 so its taking a little longer then I had hoped but I think the end is near.. I found out that the Shutters that were on the house are Non Paintable ones so I had to order all new shutters $$$ that are Paintable and they should be in next week. I am having them shipped to the Painters in Indy and there they will prime and paint and then bring them up to Muncie and install them. The house is almost done (not the garage but the house) so tomorrow it looks like I will do a walk around with them and they should be able to finish it up.. Found out they are going to redo the deck also (they got some paint on it and things) so that is cool. I had a down morning but it got better as the day went on.. OK I wont bother you longer with the blah blah blah.. Cya

Vacation Week / House Week 2

Well I got up today after a crappy night of HOT SLEEP.. I haven't gotten the AC's in yet and it is so hot in the house. I also worked out in the garage all day and just in a stage of (WORRY) over the house. I know that everyone says it will work out and it will be better then when they got here but I just don't know ya know. I keep finding things that I don't know about but hey I guess all I can do is sit back and watch and see how it ends up. I trust them its just hard because anyone that knows me knows I hate waiting and hate not knowing.. Other then that things are great around here and at work.

Great Day...

Today was a pretty good day.. Worked in Muncie for a few min then to Fishers then to Anderson then Home.. Tomorrow will be about the same.. I came home today and surprised my Great Niece with a new Doll called "The American Girl" or something like that and about 4 outfits.. She loved it I think lol.. I laid down and fell asleep and woke up just feeling bad.. I have been pushing something for about a week now and it is really getting old fast.. Other then that everything is great and just doing it day by day..