Thursday Again........

I got up today after a really hard up and down sleep last night. I am not in the best of moods at all today.. I got a call yesterday from BRAD the guy I used to work with at LifeStream and he left a message for me that said he is going to call me again soon. I really hope that he does so we can talk. I also was in a negative mood last night (like I always am it seems) and my niece Sabra made a comment to me that made me think a lot. It seems well I knew but now I seem to just talk about stuff and always seem to be negative so after thinking last night and today I am just going to stop hanging out with family just till I get get my mouth under control and stop being negative. I honestly just have to train myself not to talk about stuff.. I honestly think that I am and have always been for a long time a negative person because of friendships that have failed or girls that have done me wrong, or jobs that have not lasted or people (dad) that passed away. It tends to change how you think and act. People only know this if they go through something that is major in their lives. I guess wen I said the other day about retraining myself I really have to start from scratch. I guess it never really hit home with me till someone in my family said it. Well I am sitting out in a parking lot just watching traffic and watching a DVD and working on the computer so I will end post... today will be better and end better (I hope).. I will be at home all evening watching TV working on the computer and hanging out if you need something let me know. I have a killer headache today and it also sucks......