ok here we gooooo.

I am SICK and TIRED of getting emails from idiots that say I am begging for Money and that I am pathetic for not having a job. IF you really knew me then you would know I don't beg for Money......... I am short on cash yes but I am not begging and I am sick of you saying things. I guess you must like this site because you keep coming back for some reason. Let me guess it is one of maybe 10 sites on the web with so many cams and so many interactive thing that are FREE. To me you are all IDIOTS for thinking things and writing them in an anonymous way.. I live my life and I live it on the web. If you dont like it and dont like my life start your own and see how you do. My suggestion is if you want porn then go pay for it. If you want someone that is real and honest and nice person then keep visiting and learn about me and my family. People like you make me want to set my site as a pay site so I can weed idiots like you out.

Now that I have said my piece about the IDIOTS out there.... How is everyone else doing. Today I got up and I was very tired. I didn't sleep well at all. I headed to the bank and then to my doctors apt. and she had double booked so I left and came back home. I had a job interview (Via Phone) and when it was done wow... I felt like crap. I laid down for a few and got up and went to bowling. My mind wasn't on it at all and I just wanted to get out of there. I came home and watched some TV and did some thinking. I am going to head to bed soon because tomorrow I have 2 more interviews and I am looking forward to 1 of them. Anyway "See idiot I am trying to get a job". If you guys need something let me know.

hi and hello again

Well I had a pretty good weekend. I got invited out to Lawrence and Sara's to hang out and have dinner and it was really really nice. I posted some pictures of little man playing and doing pushups. I really did have a great time "Thank you guys". I got up today and just hung around the house and did some cleaning. My leg has been killing me now for a while and I don't know what the deal is.... Anyway I go invited over to Sabra and Paul's tonight to visit so I went over and had a really nice time. I got to get little one up and play with her and see her roll over "YEAH" and all that. Below are some pictures of her. I talked with Sabra and it was nice. She invited me over tomorrow afternoon and evening so I am really looking forward to that. I also have an Interview on Tuesday afternoon at 3 here at the house. It is over the phone and web. It is with a tech firm that monitors and administers companies all over this area. I would be working from home and that would be great. So we will see. I never heard anything back from Indy so I guess that is down the tubes. It really sucks to because that company could go so far. It is now about 4:30am and my leg has been killing me so I can't sleep... I took about 5 pain pills "3 Oxy's and 2 Darv's" about 20 min ago so we will see. Anyway... I hope everyone is ok.. I want to thank the people that are donating to my site. It is funny how much I think back and have helped people and gave to people and bought for people and not even thought twice about it and now when I am short I never thought that I would even let people give to me. It is hard but some are stepping up and I love that. Once again you can donate on my site it takes credit cards / debit cards and checks. Oh that reminds me I also lost my debit/credit card this weekend so if you find it let me know. Ok I am getting woozy and things are blurry so I am going to bed. Night Night...

Thursday (blurrrrrr)

I got up today and started cleaning house. I worked on my office *wow* what a mess. I did some laundry and worked on resumes. I made a lot of calls checking on them and other jobs. I left for a drive and just had to clear my head. YES last night I had a messed up dream again even though I got about 5 hours of sleep it sucked. I dreamed about a job again and just blah.. I ended up working on my iphone (Congrats 1.1.3 and perfect running jailbreak) I love it.. I ended up going for a drive again tonight and got Sabra a FREE TEA from McDonalds. I went over and hung out there for a few and then came back home. What a day it was almost just a blur. No Donations to the site today... lol.. Anyway I am about to head to bed and I hope to sleep a little better tonight.. It is now 4:00am or so. WOW... night night

Wednesday/Thursday Morning Post

I got up Wednesday and worked around the house. I left and headed to Sabra and Paul's to watch TV and hang out for a few. After that I came home and worked on computers. I have really talked to anyone all day; I was pretty quiet I guess. Now it is about 3:00am and I am heading to bed. Good morning it is now 7:00am and I am back up and don't know if I should lie back down or just try and stay up. I just woke up after a dream about jobs and my Dad again. If you check on me and I am bed lol I crashed if not then say hi or whatever. Again if you need anything let me know.

Nice Tuesday....

I got up late (because I broke my alarm clock) and headed to the doctors. I called Carol on the way and she asked what time I had to be there and I said 11 and she said Patrick it is after 11 now lol. Wow I was out of it. Anyway I left there after a great visit and headed to my old place of employment. I filled out an app and left my resume and it was really nice to go in there again. I left there and drove down and got me a sandwich and headed home. I worked around the house all day cleaning and everything. I took down my curtains to be washed tomorrow in the bedroom and I changed my sheets (blue satin) and moved everything and dusted and swept and everything. I got all that done oh I changed my cams a little in the bedroom. I finished that and I was almost late to bowling league. We only have 3 weeks left thank goodness. I had a great time and Jeff and I got to talk it was cool. I left there and came home and been working on my 1.1.3 iPhone.. Yes I got it cracked.... I also would like to THANK Angie in Ohio for the great donation and also Joan from Cali for her donation today. It is really nice. Thank You.... It is now about 2:30am and I am heading to bed. If you need anything or there is anything I can do let me know. Anyway tomorrow is another day and it WILL be a good day... (I hope) lol

Monday Monday lol

I got up today and started working again on Resumes. I sent out about 14 or so. I also want to thank Angie for helping me find some. She sent me some places that were looking for people. I also worked around the house on laundry and things. I went for a drive and filled up the Jimmy with gas and just went to the park and sat for a few. I left there and went to Sabra and Paul's. They wanted to treat me to dinner for last night. We hung out for a few and I left there then came home. It was and is snowing lightly but I don't think we are going to get anything big. I came home and was looking around at more jobs and found that the old place I used to work at for 6 years is hiring my position again. They are under new ownership so I am going to go back there. The job was and Maintenance Supervisor. I loved it when I was there. So tomorrow when I get up I am going to go there before I go to the doc's. I am also cutting out all my meds and stopping with all doc's till I can find something. I hope everyone is doing ok and if you need anything that I can help with please let me know. Below is a picture of Little One.

Well it is now about 3:00am and I couldn't sleep so I got up and did what I needed to do. I wrote a letter to my dad. Yes he passed a long time ago but I still have thoughts and dreams and nightmares about the whole thing. See a lot of people don't know this but I rode with my dad in the ambulance to the hospital that Sunday Night. I saw all the things they did to him and I just have never talked about it to anyone not even family I don't think. The things I saw and the things his body did were just to much. I try and not think about them but it gets me sometimes. My Doctor said to write a letter to him and talk about it and other things and that might help. I did that and wow. I feel better but talk about a lot on a mind. I know some of you have lost your parents or whatever and it sucks. They say you never know till you go through it and I tell you what.. I hope no one has to go through it. IT SUCKS. He died Monday night and never regained conscious from the night before. I never got to say Bye I never got to say anything and trust me anyone that knows me knows that I have to have closure or know why or what happen. Well lately I have been having some bad dreams about that night in the ambulance and I hate to say I wish I didn't see it and I wish I wasn't there but it was just hard and still is. It seemed to take days to get to the hospital.. Anyway I just had to get that out. Now since I am up and can't sleep I might as well work on my iPhone. Night all

Sunday Sunday Sunday...

I got up today and again started working on resumes and things like that. I went for a drive (to clear my head) and then headed to Sabra and Paul's to babysit. I had another TIME lol wow she can be wow... lol anyway When Sabra and Paul got there she was 100% better. She is so cute. She even gave me a look like what are you doing Patrick.. lol... Also I got another 20 on Wii Sports Fitness. I left there and went for a drive just to think and then I headed home. I worked on sending out resumes and things when I got home and watched a movie. I just cant seem to focus on anything..

SLEEPY SATURDAY...

I finally got up today around 2:30pm. I had a small headache and I just didn't feel good. I then worked on the computer and around the house. I also sent out more resumes and did some online things. I went to the grocery and got dinner and took it to Sabra and Paul's. Sabra cooked and I played with little one and then we ate (yum yum) and Little One went to bed. We watched a movie and I left and headed home. I came home and worked on the computer some more and ended up watching a movie. Now it is 2:00am and I think I am going to go to bed. I get to babysit tomorrow night for Little One so I will have the cam going for those of you who want to watch.. (??? Cam).. from about 4:30pm on. I hope everyone is doing well.

Hello again....

OK... after a long long night of hacking the iPhone I went to bed and got up around 8:30am. I worked on Resume stuff on the net and making calls. I started in on the iPhone again and basically been working around the house all day. I left for a few or did I?? I honestly wow can’t remember if I went anywhere today or not. That is weird. hmmm.. Well anyway I don’t know what I did today if I did leave but I know I spend the evening here at the house working on the computers and watching movies and all that. I wanted to say a Special Thanks to Kenneth of Springfield Mo. He donated to my website and I just wanted to say thanks... That is awesome.. hmm well anyway thanks again.. I really can’t believe that I don’t remember what I did today. Ok it is 2:35am right now and I am BEAT.... I am going to go ahead and go to bed... If you guys need anything let me know and I will try and help as much as I can.

Big Post ..... Big Thoughts....

Hello everyone.......... I hope you all have been doing great. Let's see where do I start. I have been working on the computer a lot doing things from job hunting to hacking to dvd work to repairing things for people. I have been spending a lot of time around the house getting things done. I have tried not bugging Sabra and Paul and saw Sabra and little one and Sara and little man last night at Thursday Night Dinner. Wow I missed them and it was cool seeing them. I left there and went for a drive to the post office and just around for a few and then headed back home. I got a call from my Cuz Kris and we talked for a long time it was really nice. We used to hang out all the time when we were young and I miss that.. Now he is married with 3 kids and lives out west. He told me to come out this summer and I think that would be freaking awesome. One of the things I remember we did is he had a chevette (little car) I think it was his and we drove around and jumped out the back and loaded up the road construction blockades and we would drive and cover up the blinking lights with a towell and then we would take the blinking light off the blockade and then return the blockade and keep the lights for our rooms. lol... it was sooo funny. Wow I actually remembered something lol. I am also updating my iPhone and having a lot of issues with that but I have documented a way to hack your phone. I will post it below at the end of the post. Another thing............... What is it with Black History Month? I don’t understand this. I am not sure why we have this. We don’t have a White History Month or a Mexican History Month or a English history month.. hmmm why is this (kind of dumb) if you ask me.



1.1.3 Downgrade from oops upgrade… (1.1.3 to 1.1.1 to 1.1.2 to 1.1.3) should take about 3-4 hours….
Put your iPhone in to recovery mode by holding the sleep wake button and the home button for about 10 seconds like a normal reset until the screen goes dark and once it does, release the sleep wake button but continue holding down the home button for another 15 sec until iTunes has detected that your phone is in recovery mode. Go back iTunes and hold the Shift key and click restore. Finder should pop up. Locate the 1.1.1 firmware file and select it. ITunes should do all the extracting and restoring. After the update is finished, iTunes will say error 1015 occurred. This is normal. ITunes should still be in recovery mode. Do the Shift restore and thing again and select the 1.1.1 firmware file once again and let iTunes extract and restore. Once this is done the same error will occur and the iPhone will still be in recovery mode. Next, launch iPhuc and type these commands:cmd setenv auto-boot truecmd saveenvcmd fsbootand wait a little while (10-20 sec) and your iPhone will be kicked out of recovery mode. Close iPhuc. ITunes/iPhone will detect incorrect sim. This is also normal.
First, slide the slide for emergency slider and in the keypad type *#307# and call. The phone should start to ring and bring you straight back to the key pad. Now dial 0 the phone will begin to ring again. hit answer, hold decline and this should bring you to the main iPhone phone page. Now tap contacts, add contact and name the contact whatever you want. Now go down to add url. Add the url prefs: and then add another new url for the same contact http://jailbreak.toc2rta.com and then save. Then tap the contact you just made and hit prefs. This should take you o the iPhone settings application. Go to wifi and connect to your wifi point. Then go t0 general-autolock - and change it to never. Then press the home button. Then slide for emergency call and type 0 call. The phone should start to ring. Hit answer, hold, and decline again. This should once again launch the phone app. Go back to the contact you made and open it up and this time tap the url http://jailbreak.toc2rta.com. This should launch the safari browser. Once it loads the page it will reboot your phone still with the error of incorrect sim. Don’t worry you are still going the right way...
This Is the tricky part. With others using jailbreakme.com it works differently and with my iPhone you won’t be able to use it so we are doing the jailbreak.toc2rta.com way.
Close and end process of ITunes…..
Now slide your arrow over and will take you to the dial pad. Once here you have to be connect to have the jailbreak process work. So Dial 0 then call button and Answer then hold button then decline and that will put you back to the contacts window. Leave it that way and open up Carnaval folder and run (Click here) Batch File. Continues through it till it says reboot now (1 of 4 reboots) then reboot your phone (holding down on the power button and sliding the slider to shut off) then tap the power button on your iPhone to turn it back on you will get to the Music CD/Plug in Screen on the iPhone. Now Open IPhuc and click on IPhuc and it will open dos window type in cmd fsboot (this will boot iPhone). And once you do that in the window that opened up for Carnaval continue on till next reboot. Once again reboot your phone and use Iphuc to get it back to the slide bar. Then when you slide it you will be taken to the main screen of your phone (good so far) you will also notice 2 new icons (AnySim and Installer) you will want to continue with the Carnaval screen at this point. Once again reboot your phone (3rd time) and power on and use IPhuc to get to slider screen. Once again you are back at the main screen (don’t worry about the incorrect sim we will get there) continue on with the Carnaval screen till you get to reboot (4th time) . Reboot and use iPhuc to get you back to slider screen. Basically IPhuc is the same as Ibrickr but for me ibrickr doesn’t work and I have to use iPhuc. Now you should be at 1.1.1 with all icons and finished with Carnaval.
Now we need to downgrade the baseband (fix the sim problem)
Okay, first launch installer and go to install (if Installer asked you to update go ahead and update Installer) and scroll down to system. Install the BSD subsystem. Then go to sources, edit, add. type in http://i.unlock.no/ Now go back to install and scroll down to unlocking tools and find the basebanddowngrader. This should take about 5-10mn to install. Once finished, put you phone into recovery mode and do the Shift restore and once again select the 1.1.1 firmware file once finished, when iPhone asks you to restore from back up, don’t, just set up as a new phone and you will now notice that you have an activated 1.1.1 iPhone!!!! =) (if your iPhone goes into recovery mode, just launch iPhuc and let it boot it out).
You are still at 1.1.1 now you have to load installer again. To do that connect your wifi and set your time out to never. Then visit using your iPhone safari to http://jailbreak.toc2rta.com/. That will take you back to the main screen. Now open up Carnaval again and run it. Once again at the first reboot, reboot your iPhone this time your iPhone will boot up automatically so you don’t have to use iPhuc. Then continue on with Carnaval. Once you are finished with all 4 reboots in Carnaval you will have on the main screen the installer icon and the anysim. Now you can install all the 3rd party apps you want or be like me and upgrade to 1.1.2 with all the 3rd party apps by continuing on.
Once you are here with 1.1.1 with installer loaded. Slide the slider and launch installer. Go to install and scroll down to system and install BSD subsystem. Then install Community Sources in Installer. Then go back to installer and scroll down to tweaks 1.1.1 and install oktoprep. Once finished, launch iTunes and hold down the shift key and click the update key and locate the 1.1.2 firmware file. Select it and let iTunes do its thing. When finished, you should have a 1.1.2 iPhone… Almost done…
Now you need to get Installer on your 1.1.2 iPhone. Open 1.1.2 jailbreak folder and click on Windows Batch File. This will run and install the Installer program (there is where you have all your 3rd party aps).Okay, first launch installer, scroll down to system and install the BSD subsystem. Once finished, scroll down to system again and install the official 1.1.3 upgrader. Once finished, press the home button and launch it. this step should take about 20-30mn but once finished, you should have a 1.1.3 jailbroken iPhone =) If your iPhone goes into recovery mode just launch iPhuc and wait once again.

A Good Tuesday for the Record Books......

ok... I know I havent been posting but, I just havent been myself lately... I know a lot of people read my blog and have been on my site for years and years and see me when I have my ups and downs just like a lot of people but I need to start blogging about everything no matter what it is about.... Maybe that will help me vent.. I have been going to Sabra and Paul's a lot lately but I am trying to slow that down. A) I dont want them to get sick of me B) I just dont want to impose. I have also been looking for a job and that isnt going well.. Well it is but I just want to make sure that it is the right job this time. Even if it is a total change of what I did before I just want to be happy and enjoy it. I worked so many hours and so many days from my last joband it ended up being my life and during the time my life just passed me by. I will not let that happen again. I also have been working on my I-Phone with all the new hacks and everything that are out there. I have been working on computer's and doing odd jobs. I have also been doing some work for some people over seas. Off the subject lol I cant believe my Remote Cam is still working (above the house). They said it wouldnt work at all during the winter but so far it has worked in -19 degrees (WindChill) and rain, snow and everything. I finally got the Yellow Nissan fixed and working GREAT (thanks Jeff). My Theropist is moving offices and that is bad and good in a way. Good is becuase it is a real nice place and closer to the house. BAD is that I wont be able to see the Receiptnist any more and wow she is not only a GREAT person and very very kind but wow what EYE CANDY. I gave HD a bath today lol littleman loves it lol. Mom has also been sick and the other night she woke up and couldnt move her leg. I talked to the docs and they think it may have been a small stoke so I am looking for some things in her actions and so on that they told me to keep an eye out for. I didnt tell mom about the doctor saying it was a stroke just to save her thoughts some. She is already depressed enough. Part of me just feels different about getting a job right now I dont know why but I have a bad feeling about something. Dont know what it is. But money is starting to get low so I have to do something. I still havent heard about the job in Indy.. I thought and still think that it is the best job for me right now becuase it is everything I did before but for a much better company and much better people and only a few days a week but still Full-Time. I went bowling tonight and had the best game of my life.. I got 9 strikes in a row and then in the 10th I got a 8 then 1. I ended up with a 266. Anyway enough talking lol here is a pic for you (guys)...